So, with the latest update, Wordpress finally works on my iPhone. Going to try and update my blog more, and you can also follow me on Twitter (Leonard_wood). Hopefully the photos work too.
60 days from now I will officially be a Georgia resident.
Atlanta, here I come!
So, those of you who visited this page since February 8th have seen the memorial page I had up, about the death of my 3 month old daughter Katherine.
It’s been almost a month now, the funeral in MI was very nice. We owe so much to my in-laws and mom who took care of everything. I dont think you know how much it meant to us, to not have to worry about what we were going to do..
We’re still waiting on the tests and such from the Medical Examiner’s office so we can get Katherine’s death certificate and be done with this nightmare.
The house will be going up for sale as soon as we can get it ready. might as well start now since it’s going to be on the market for a while. start painting and landscaping.
As for me. I dunno. I just feel kind of empty inside. I dont really know what else to say about what happened, I dont even feel like I can cry anymore, I’m just still.. numb. The pain is there, I just cant bring myself to try and process it yet. It’s just so overwhelming to even try and think about it, I just shove it back in a box and focus myself on something else..
I looked at my last post, about getting my laptop back. it showed up on the 8th, my door was flanked by Austin police and crime scene unit officers. I didnt even care at that point that I got it back. It’s not what I wanted. What I want back, I can never ever get back. I’ll always have this hole inside me, where a little 3 month old girl used to live, and I dont know what I can do to just make the hurting go away. I dont want drugs. I dont want alcohol, I just want to be able to hold my little girl again, and I know I cant. My heart is stuck in a loop that just gets worse and worse each time I try and think about it.
I never got a chance to give the Eulogy I had written in my head for Kat. But there is one thing I kept going over, and one thing that made sense:
Never procrastinate. Don’t think you’ll do it tomorrow. Dont put off a picture, a video, a hug or just time to spend with your children.
Because one day, you might wake up, and not have a tomorrow. This is what I have to live with. I put things off. I didnt get the pictures we wanted, I always thought it could wait until tomorrow. Now I dont have tomorrow.
I have a picture of my little girl, in an urn. That’s my tomorrow. thats the last picture I’ll ever have. So, please, dont waste the time you have with your children.
Step 3 – Return
Product return pending (07-Feb-2007)
So, I had owned my shiny Macbook Pro for about week when I saw the pink lines and spots on the lcd which prompted a trip to the apple store..
But now, I have to deal with a part being on backorder (The LCD of all fucking things).
It’s been a little over a week, and I just want my goddamn laptop back.
You hear me Steve? I want my shiny back!
So, I’ve made up my mind. no more sugar, no more refined flours, etc.
I brought some meat and green beans for lunch today and some string cheese to snack on. I will do this.
Looking forward to starting to work out with Kate too. She’s been a big help to me lately. Now all I need to do is stop being a chicken shit about dealing with the trainer. I emailed him, but I’m kind of worried about the response.. 
So I’ve been having the urge to play WoW again.
I gave up when Sunni got pregnant, so I could be more attentive to her, and what she needs since her last pregnancy was hard on her..
So, now that the baby is born, and I have some time I can devote a couple nights a week to gaming, I want to get back into Playing Wow. whole new account/character.
I guess what I’m looking for are reasons not to.. I miss the fun, the people I used to play with, etc.. maybe with a new character I can start over on a new server and maybe re-discover the fun of the game..
As you may or may not know, Sunni and I have an agreement, that once a year, I am allowed to purchase one major piece of tecnhology. Computer, etc.
So, this year’s winner is…
The Apple Mac Book Pro 15″ 2.16Ghz Core Duo.
Yeah, it’s a refurb, but the price is right. And it’s an intel mac that kicks some serious ass.
Ok, so, the day the PS3 is launched, Craigslist gets flooded with PS3’s as high as $5k.
This shit pisses me off. Because they went and camped out for a few hours, they feel their time is worth that much. Nuh-uh. fuck all that. You have time to spend 72 hours outside of best buy? You must not have a job. So, you want to be compensated for your time? $5 an hour. So that still keeps a 60G PS3 under a grand.
So, I will happily continue flagging posts on craigslist as those greedy bastards scramble to try and unload their PS3’s. they’re gonna be pretty upset when the new shipments come in this week.
